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last night at midnight
Sep. 6th, 2025 07:03 pmi'm laying in bed and my stomach's growling at me, but i'll probably go back to sleep before i actually get up and eat and shower. for the past week or so i've been lazily writing this fanfiction about beach house. there's two, but i got bored of the first one and i'm not sure where either of them are going. yeah i know, rpf is cringe or whatever and self-shipping is bad or something, but at least i'm not writing sex scenes or posting it anywhere. i mean, i used to have one about sex, but i was a depressed freak and i dont read that one. honestly, i just now remembered i even had that, and i might go and delete it since it was literally no use to me at all.
yeah, self-shipping is bad, but i think its way better than using AI chatbots or drawing yourself having sex with someone who doesn't even know you exist. yeah, that happens. as an ex-ai chatbot user who was kind of an addict, yes it's cringe and you definitely have to painstakingly lead the AI into making the story you want. also. typing out a roleplay with someone else is like, way more fun.
anyways, the story is just about being beach house's photographer and victoria's partner. we're on the tour bus going to the next venue but it's been raining all day, we're all bored, and it's that awkward point where you've run out of things to talk about or things to do, so we're all not really talking and just doing or own thing. but i made sure the vibe was just a little bit off, and victoria's worried about the way i forget to blink when i'm really focused on taking pictures. yes, i do that in real life.
i don't know where that's gonna go, but the other one is just about being tired after a long day of walking around in paris with victoria between shows. i'm always tired after walking and i end up hurting for a while if i don't have good shoes, so it's basically about being the weaker one. yeah it might be a weird fantasy, but it's not that weird for someone who's used to hurting and being told to walk it off. so when we get back to our hotel, victoria's like "dude you do not look well at all. will you like, let me help you?" so she gets me some food, we cuddle, talk about some stuff, i don't know. i have a thing for being taken care of, obviously. my kink is uh... being treated nice?
yeah, self-shipping is bad, but i think its way better than using AI chatbots or drawing yourself having sex with someone who doesn't even know you exist. yeah, that happens. as an ex-ai chatbot user who was kind of an addict, yes it's cringe and you definitely have to painstakingly lead the AI into making the story you want. also. typing out a roleplay with someone else is like, way more fun.
anyways, the story is just about being beach house's photographer and victoria's partner. we're on the tour bus going to the next venue but it's been raining all day, we're all bored, and it's that awkward point where you've run out of things to talk about or things to do, so we're all not really talking and just doing or own thing. but i made sure the vibe was just a little bit off, and victoria's worried about the way i forget to blink when i'm really focused on taking pictures. yes, i do that in real life.
i don't know where that's gonna go, but the other one is just about being tired after a long day of walking around in paris with victoria between shows. i'm always tired after walking and i end up hurting for a while if i don't have good shoes, so it's basically about being the weaker one. yeah it might be a weird fantasy, but it's not that weird for someone who's used to hurting and being told to walk it off. so when we get back to our hotel, victoria's like "dude you do not look well at all. will you like, let me help you?" so she gets me some food, we cuddle, talk about some stuff, i don't know. i have a thing for being taken care of, obviously. my kink is uh... being treated nice?